p491 Dear C McAdam, - … I think our part is patience. It can never affect our conduct. I am as free as ever I was to do God's will. And God has always the last word; the exercise may be good for brethren. I am satisfied their testimony is God's, and I can count on Him for it. I went in substance through the sorrow of it before I left London. Much as I love the brethren, my happiness has always been from God, not from them. I have been a lonely bird, though constantly with many. I am quite quiet and happy; we are to be careful for nothing. I said nothing; it would have only troubled others.

The Lord is infallible in His faithfulness, and on that we can surely count. We must remember, too, that we have committed to Him our happiness for that day: here, it is our cross. Not that I am unhappy: I do not wish to be insensible to all this, but I am happier every way than I was - to His glory. I cannot do the work I did, but I have His work to do as long as He gives it to me. I trust our conference was really useful, and certainly greatly enjoyed. … Courage and perseverance - the Lord is there, and neither wearies nor fails in faithfulness. It is a state of things to look in the face, and look to Him about, and do one's duty in details as they arise, and fearlessly. The Lord fails not, nor is discouraged; "there is no searching of his understanding." I dare say it may turn out to more blessing of brethren than ever. I believe they wanted shaking. …

March 6th.

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